the season where everything’s forced to change and must come to an end.
Trees have lost their vibrancy and must shed their leaves in order to survive the winter leaving them looking bare and exposed.
Everything seems to be falling away.
Evergreens look like they’re dyeing. Showing signs of brown instead of green as they drop their needles in order to conserve moisture and energy throughout the winter season.
All the summers bounty has been or is being harvested. At least in Minnesota. Cornstalks are no longer green, now they’re brown, shriveled and dead, and are being cut and removed, leaving the fields looking bare.
All of this just makes everything look dim and bleak. Today, November is reminding me that it is indeed the cloudiest, and darkest month of all.
While into nine days of November, I wonder where the time went. My body is crying for the warm sunny weather as the temperature is hovering around 30 degrees, cloudy and windy. I feel as if I may want to shrivel up and die too.
The weather makes me want to stay inside. It also makes me want to look inside.
Look inside at me.
The word retrospect keeps coming to mind. Review, survey, contemplate.
Looking in at what needs to be handled. What needs to be cleaned to make room for all the new concepts that seem to be at the edge of the door. Remember God’s door. The one that opens when all else seems to be shutting.
My life right now seems to be just like putting away the lawn furniture for the winter. Where can it all fit? What is outdated and just needs to be given away?
I feel as if I need to make room in my being in order to bring in anything new.
I feel as if I need to take this time to contemplate what it is that I am willing to give away to make room in my mind for all the new concepts that are wanting a place within me. Just like the leaves falling away that are no longer a necessity for the tree. I just need to let all of what doesn’t pertain any longer to fall away.
I need to clean out the ‘old’ so that I can be one with me through the long winter months to ‘just be’. Just like the season of Fall. It doesn’t really look the prettiest of all the seasons, but it is what it is. Mother Nature goes through her routine knowing that it must be done. All of Mother Nature is preparing for the long cold winter. Discarding what is not needed, leaving many aspects looking bare and vulnerable. Just like what’s happening to me. She’s taking care of herself the way I need to be taking care of me. Releasing aspects that are no longer needed, and incubating growing concepts that are just wanting to come alive. Dyeing of all the old, to rebirth the new, even more creative projects, aspects, and much more of me.
It all feels as if God assigned Mother Nature to keep us programed to function with each new season. Maybe this is why I didn’t like living in Georgia when I made that attempt so many years ago. It just felt as if there were no real seasons. There was no ‘in your face real changing seasons’ like there is in Minnesota to force me to take stalk of myself. Forcing me to clear out all that old crap that I keep hanging onto. Nothing to force me to look at new growth incubating during the cold winter months looking to grow as spring comes in.
I feel it now. I know I am being forced to look at what’s not working for me anymore. Letting it all fall away and die. There seems to be such ease for the trees to just let the winds come in and blow away the leaves that need to leave.
I need to let the winds of time take my crap and blow it to a burial ground and just let it die. I feel as if I need to just be in these next few months. Recuperating from the death process and gathering energy working towards spring when I can spring into action, alive and growing once again.
As I sit here in retrospect, what keeps coming to me are the words cut, clear, cleanse, and release. Along with Archangel Michael’s smiling face.
So, I asked him to help me cut all the old dead or dyeing energy, clear it, and escort it to its rightful place within the universe. Cleansing areas that have been wounded at some point and are now needing to be healed and removed. And finally for me to just surrender and release all that old story that no longer serves a good purpose for me anymore. Like the leaves. Just allowing and accepting they are finished and have fulfilled what was needed at the time. And, now it’s all done. Just hand it all off to Archangel Michael and smile knowing I’m in a rebirthing process.
Now comes the fun part. Asking for Gods love and white light to blanket that area. To keep me feeling full, vibrant, and full of new energy to conceive all of what I came here to create. How can you go wrong inviting in Gods white loving light into your energy being. Feeling as if you deserve every ounce of that magic to make your life even better than it was before.
And now, bring on winter old man!! I’m ready for you!
I am now once again revved up and ready to take on the world one day at a time with the new and improved me that’s here, incubating, ready to spring into action at anytime.