What are you worth?
I’ve been thinking about this for some time now.
What am I really worth? I know you can’t put a dollar amount on your self-worth such as you would a vehicle, but I keep having to ask myself what I am really worth.
Sometimes I think we forget that our worth is the weight of all the gold on earth. It is the aspect that we are worth the concept of the stars, the moon, the milky way and beyond.
Our self-worth really can’t be measured by others, it can only be measured by ourselves. That’s why it should be measured as big as the universe and beyond.
When I was born I was in charge of my self-worth. It was locked up nice and tight within my own safety vault within my soul, and it was intact. But, over time, I feel that there were cracks formed in this vault from other peoples perceptions of who they thought I should be. The result, I feel, is that I was measured for what they felt, and I somehow lost a lot of my worth because I viewed them to be supreme over me.
A question that keeps coming up for me is, if a persons self-worth is lowered because they may have been mistreated in their life. I know this would be me. My self-worth has been in the bottom of the bottom many times, but I am not so sure it’s because I was mistreated. It’s probably a contributing factor, but I think it may be that I just was not in complete touch with my soul, my higher self to gain access to all of the knowledge I really do have about me. My self-empowerment.
The other day I was working with a younger adult, and I found it curious that she measured her right and wrong to what others were thinking of her. Even though she comes from a good family with values and morals she was still valuing herself to what she viewed others were thinking of her.
I’ve come to the conclusion that self-worth is of the utmost important factor we need to find within ourselves. This one thing measured as an energy can be the deciding factor of how healthy our bodies and minds will be. Gaining value in who you are is the top priority to being balanced and healthy.
How do we gain value? The number one first thing that came to me was to stop looking at what others think of you. You can’t control that anyway. You’re not in their head or think the way they do, so why waste the energy even trying.
What came next was rewarding yourself. Not depending on someone else to reward you for a job well done, but for you to do it and not be bothered by not receiving recognition from anyone else. This one could be a hard one. After all our school system is set up as a pass or fail concept coming from an outside influence as to whether we passed or failed. I remember when I was in school I thought I was doing a great job by achieving a C average. But, to my teachers this was not adequate. They wanted me to do better. Was I looked down upon and frowned upon by my peers and teachers? Absolutely! But, what they didn’t know was what was happening to me in my home life. A C average was really achieving an A in my eyes since my home life status was affecting me tremendously in my every day life. I wasn’t concentrating on my school work at the time. I had other things that were happening to me outside of school that took priority over my school work. So a C average was just fine for me, and I felt as if I was doing great. I was eventually beat down by the thought that I was actually failing in their eyes. My self-worth was leaving a semester at a time. I was allowing myself to be judged by outside influences and other peoples thoughts of me.
My conclusion about self-worth is, you cannot allow others to measure your self-worth. After all it is called ‘your self- worth’ . It doesn’t belong to them anyway it’s yours. Take it back and keep it locked up tight. When someone comes in to your space trying to tell you what to think go into that locked vault and have a talk with your soul. Reaffirm your value. After all, you are worth more than all of the gold on earth.
Based on a conclusion, step one should be rewarding yourself on a regular basis for what you think you are doing good at and then allowing yourself some much needed compassion for yourself. This can bring your C valued image to an A just by not caring what others think of you.
Step two should be the practice of meditation to achieve a realistic view of yourself. This comes from your soul–not your mother, father, siblings, husband, wife, friends, acquaintances or teachers of any kind. It’s based from your inner truth located in your soul and the view is your souls perspective before it was tainted by everyday living.
Starting with these two steps working with your internal guidance system your self-worth should accumulate exponentially to fill the universe and beyond. At least mine has. Through accessing my guides during meditation I was shown where my internal guidance system really was. I became acquainted with who I was, not the learned behavior, but my true self, and I got to know this person, and she was more able to come out and help me regain my self-worth.
While I was writing, the woodpecker came to the tree just outside my window. I looked and smile and was reaffirmed I was heading in the right direction. The woodpecker shows up when you need to pay particular attention to your own cycles and rythms and doing your best to honor them aligns yourself with them, rather than being contrary to them. 🙂